Well, yes, it kind of has been. It hasn’t been the easiest week for me. I have been feeling emotionally low. I can’t really say how it started, as nothing really happen for me to start feeling this way. I just started feeling low over the weekend. It wasn’t something someone said or did. It just happened.
But then the work week started. And I did make some mistakes. Nothing major, but things that could be avoided. I wasn’t paying as close attention as I should have. I wasn’t getting all the info or the right ones. I wasn’t maybe taking as much time to understand something as I should have. Thankfully, I was able to correct some of these things, and as I have said, it wasn’t anything major that I couldn’t correct, but some of these things are part of how my ADHD/ADD brain works.
Anyway, these things have affected how I’ve felt. I felt low before, but making some mistakes didn’t help. It hasn’t been easy.
Some of the things that I have done are pretty normal and common for someone with ADHD/ADD. I am well aware of that. And they are sometimes mistakes that we do often make. But that being said, it doesn’t mean that they are things we want to. We don’t do these things on purpose. We don’t intentionally go out of our way to make mistakes or not pay close attention to things. They just happen. Unfortunately.
Yes, my ADHD/ADD brain is different and works differently. It is a fact that I have accepted and come to terms with. I am okay with it. It is something that I can work with.
However, that doesn’t mean that my emotions are on the same page and won’t be affected, when things happen, like I miss a detail or I don’t understand something as quickly as I should or would like to. My emotions aren’t quite there yet. My emotions aren’t on the same page as my brain or that part of me who accepts that I have ADHD/ADD and that my brain is different.
So, even now, having ADHD/ADD is still affecting me emotionally. So, if I miss a detail, or take longer to understand something, or something, guilt, low self-esteem, sadness, and such may be present. Yes, I will still feel these emotions when I do something that I know I probably should be able to do a lot more easily.
Alright, I know that a lot of it isn’t quite my fault. A lot of it is due to how my brain works. It works differently, and there isn’t a whole lot that I can do to change that. I can’t change how my brain works and is wired. I know of all this. Anyone who has ADHD/ADD may know this. Yes, there are things we can do to help, but we do still have ADHD/ADD and do things differently.
So, yes, it has been an emotional week for me. It hasn’t been easy. Sure, it could have been a lot worse, and I am grateful that it wasn’t, but even then, it’s been hard. I’m sure that those of you with ADHD/ADD can relate. I’m sure that you do understand how it can sometimes feel like when you just feel low and then it affects your work, or how you do things. It’s hard emotionally.
I am sure that things will be better at some point, but right now things haven’t been easy. So, I’m just trying to take it one things at a time, and try to handle to them as best as I can. That’s all I can really do. Whether others understand it or not, that’s really all I can do. I am different. I will do and learn differently.
So, to all ADHDers/ADDers, who have had hard times, or going through hard times, let’s stay strong. Let’s be strong together. We can all do this, and it can be easier if and when we support each other. We all need support and sometimes it’s best when it comes from people who understand what we’re going through.
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