So, up until now, I’ve pretty much just focused on the aspects of ADHD/ADD. However now I’d like to discuss something a little different. A little more personal. And that topic is: why I am writing a blog about ADHD/ADD. Well, there’s quite a few reasons.
First, let me tell you a little bit about my experience.
As I mentioned, I was diagnosed with ADD when I was 12. After a few years of just struggling with attention, not being able to complete tasks, struggling with my grades, and so much more, it was a relief to know that it wasn’t really me. It wasn’t my fault. So, then I started high school, began taking medication for my ADD, and things got easier. I could focus in class, complete tasks, and my grades were so much better than they had been. I felt good. Things were good and under control. I didn’t really talk about my ADD. It wasn’t a subject that was really discussed. I wouldn’t say that it was because it was a taboo subject or anything. I’m not fully sure why, but it’s just not something I remember discussing much with my parents. I didn’t mention anything to friends, because I was a little embarrassed. Back then I wasn’t ready to admit to having ADD. Although I know I could talk to my parents about it, I didn’t really feel the need to, and they didn’t really bring it up. Not sure why. Just the way it was.
Things were pretty good and not to difficult. Until I went to university and moved into residence. I was then completely on my own. I was looking forward to it, although I didn’t anticipate the challenge of living on my own and being in university, as an ADDer. I struggled with new things that I didn’t really have to face before, like time management, organization, planning, and just remembering to submit things on time. It wasn’t easy. I was struggling with pretty much everything. Things that should completely easy for a young adult. Because I didn’t talk about my ADD to anyone, and didn’t do research of my own on the subject, I was pretty much in the dark about these new struggles and how my ADD was tide in with these challenges. Thankfully, I still managed to finish and get my BA. I’m not always fully sure how I managed, but I am definitely grateful that I did. Somehow, I made it.
Fast forward a few months after graduation, my eldest daughter was born. So, now I was a mom, which does come with new experiences and challenges. And those experiences mixed with ADD can have its ups and downs.
Now, 6 years after that, I have three kids, 6, 4 1/2, and 3. I have a lot on my plate. Taking care of kids isn’t always easy. Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids and am so grateful to have them in my life and to be their mom. I wouldn’t trade any of it. That being said, raising kids does have its challenges as well. Add ADHD/ADD into the mix and it’s a whole different thing. Put together, it hasn’t always made day-to-day life easy to be able to manage. Some days have been easier than others, though. But there have been days when I’ve gotten upset at them over the small things, and felt guilty afterward. Getting ready in the mornings, before school and daycare, is a workout, between making lunch, getting everyone ready, and making sure that I have everything. I’m not saying that non-ADHDers/ADDers don’t struggle with these things sometimes, but when you do have it, it’s every morning of the week.
Now, I’ll go back to the point for this post. Why am I writing this blog? Why am I writing about ADHD/ADD? I guess it all comes down to this: Although I’ve had ADD for as long as I can remember, I still don’t know a whole lot about it. There is a lot that I would like to learn, and I would like to share what I’m learning with others. I want to talk about it. I want to share experiences. At the end of the day, I think that’s what it’s all about.
I’ve been in the dark for a long time about what ADHD/ADD is and how it is affecting my life, in more ways than one. So, it’s time for me to learn about ADHD/ADD. Maybe it’s something that I should have done a long time ago, but I didn’t. So, I’m doing it all now. I guess it’s better a little late than never. And I guess that’s why I am doing it now. I want to know and it’s time for me to do so. It’s time for me to do it and get a handle on my brain and how it works.
There’s just a lot more to ADHD/ADD than just a lack of focus or hyperactivity. As I am doing some research into, I am learning quite a bit. A lot of how I behave that can be explained and tide to my ADHD/ADD. More than I thought. I’m not trying to use any of it as an excuse. But it does explain quite a bit.
Although I am just starting to work on this blog and I’ve only begun to do some research, it has been beneficial so far. I have learned some things, and I’m sure there is more for me to learn and potentially share. So, this is my reason for doing this. My ADHD/ADD isn’t going away, and I should learn to adapt things to make it all work for me. So, I will continue to learn about it, grow with it, and hopefully keep sharing more information about it.
It’s time for me to just accept my ADD and work with it, instead of against it.
Thanks for reading.